this week ive mostly been spontaniously getting up and with my friend making plans so vague its unnbelievable and yet still pulling off the best nights ive had in a long time. its been a great shift from my normal organised self cos my mates laid back enough for the both of us soo it takes a load of pressure off for some reason im no sure i can explain properly.
in the last few days ive been in st.andrews, dundee, glasgow and edinburgh for nights out. granted, some of that was just using my bus pass for a sleep to stay warm cos we were tired and bored, but thats besides the point.
Excuse the rather obvious title but it had to be done.
With little to do over the next while and my sister running late on her pregnancy and my parents coming back in a day or 2 im doing the grown up/awesome little brother/cool uncle Dave thing and getting and overnight coach to london for just over a week in a day or so. ill be there to look after my neice while my sister zooms off to hospital with my bro in law then to just help about the house whilse she settles back in.... like a nanny that doesnt get paid. i know, i know. it sounds too good to be true.
But it'll be fun, cos ill get to see my neice, ny sis and bro in law and the new baby. The downside is that ive gotta come back to look after the pets. AGAIN.
the reason i moved out was to stop this and here i am right now with the dog at my feet and when i come back ive got to have them again for another few days. Its my last time tho, and only cos its my mums birhday i can be bothered doin it again.
woah... ive went into 'emo blog' mode. i think its living in such a big house alone i rekon.
im gonna make a burger.... yes, its 4am almost. but im hungry. and it'll go well with smallville.
Here's my answers to questions Suzi gave me, and just so you know Suzi - Damn good questions, Ive really had to think about the answers!
Q1. for as long as Ive known you, you’ve wanted to work with children. what drives you to do that?
Simple. Its easy, fun and I think I'm good at it. Ive always felt that working with people was easy or if not easy it would be a learning experience that became rewarding and id get the rewarding experience out of it.
I really like working with different age groups and different groups in general because you either get a group of great kids or kids you have to work with to finish a project or help them develop. Ive done everything from jigsaws and building sandcastles to helping design and watch youths act out a play of what 'being a young person means to them'.
Long and short, I like being able to have fun and a laugh and since that ties in with helping people - all the better :)
Q2. for some unknown reason, you’re on death row. what would your final meal be?
Spaghetti bolognaise, no doubt. Its by far my favourite meal. It'd have enough spaghetti with plenty of mince and a nice bolognaise sauce with sweet red peppers chopped up in it topped off with melted mozzarellaand maybe a pinch of salt.
Q3. you’ve got a year free and a budget of £3,000. what do you do with it?
Id divide the money up into a certain amount for the month each (£250) and buy myself something that i could use but also be left behind for someone - like games, maybe a cool suit, some films; that kind of thing. id use the excess to enjoy spending the time with friends and family - making more of an opportunity than i am just now to see people and hang out lot more and spend some money buying rounds or paying for foodstuffs cos id be able to afford it.
Any excess money from that month I'd either carry over or put into a bank account to be passed down to my nieces (and possibly nephews) - probably the bank account thing though.
Q4. which piece of art (visual, prose, poetry, music, film) resonates the most with you, and why?
I guess the book come film 'The Rules of Attraction' originally written by Bret Easton Ellis in 1987 and the movie was directed by Roger Avery in 2002. Its great as in both it portrays a story told from 3 different points of view, a gay guy, a drug dealer and a girl whos settling rather than waiting on her 'true love'. I guess it resonates with me as it is blunt. Its real, and it tells you how life is and how it will be.... with a bit of an exaduration to make it readable/watchable sure but the characters are awesome, some more appelable than others but they all remind you of someone you know at least in a small way and the book leaves you with some questions answered and more questions to ask yourself.
Why wasnt uni like that for me? Are people really that blunt?, How do I make myself more like that person/these people? How do i bring a bit of that into my life? wtf did that say in french?? It ended how now?
Amongst others. The book is based in the 80's when it was written and the movie is done with a modern twist but in no way lacks to the book. (for those of you who didnt notice itrs written byu the guy who wrote "American Psycho" and one of the characters in this, Sean - is Patricks Batemans brother).
The books great, the movie is awesome and they really make you think.... and about yourself and your situation, how everything and every decision has a consequence.
I Hope I Answered That Question Right....
Q5. if you had to do something today which scared you, what would you do. (and i mean scared, like out-of-your-comfort-zone scary. not necessarily adrenaline-high scary)
I guess it would be something Ive always wanted to do but never managed to or got around to yet,but to keep in line with your question, it wouldn't be something like bungee jumping or sky diving which i know would scare me but would still love to do. It would more be like something I'd never done but i knew had a lot of risks attached to it. Something with a thrill factor but maybe could get me in trouble or could pay off if i got away with it. (I hope this is making sense so far).
Well, now that Ive described the kind of thing id do, the reason id do it, maybe needing more of a risk factor/adrenaline involved i cant actually think of an answer of somthing id want to do that i havent done that fits into this category....... Maybe I'd wait for someone to dare me to do someone to dare me to do someone i liked the sund of but didnt thikn i was confident enough to do. Then i'd realise that that was the exact thing i should go do.
Very Well CL, I ask you the following 5 questions:
1. If you had to choose one thing, person, or moment inspired you to chose the university couse that you are on now - what would it be?
2. Do you have a plan for after university, i.e. further education? work experience? a job? marry a rich man and just live off his money?
3. Based on your last answer where will you be and what will you be doing in the next 5-10 years? who will you be and who will you still know that you know now?
4. Is there anyone you look up to? be they a real person, a character from a book or someone from tv. it doesnt have to be the whole person, just aspects of them that you admire.
5. What is your quote or are your quotes to life, and why?
Suzi, the following 5 questions are for yourself;
1. Do you have any regrets in your life up to where you are right now? what are they?
2. Is there something that you are really looking forward to at the moment? Maybe not something thats set in stone but an idea in your head that you plan to follow through with your excited about?
3. We've been friends now for about 5 years maybe, and we've kept in touch for a lot of this time. Do you think we will keep this friendship going for a long time in the future, even if we end up in different places?
4. whens the last time you done something you would normally never do and what was it? - was it a good or a bad thing?
5. What item, or persons do you treasure the most in the world? is here anything you would give them up for?
Ive started writing a bit again, well continuing more to the point. busses seem to be the perfect environment for me for some reason, they give me about 2 hours at times of time to just write. Ive got most of the story sorted now too which is cool, I'm just a bit stuck on how to expand the middle, although i guess ill figure that out as i go - its whats been happening so far. i reckon ill start typing it up soon too so i can get a better grasp of the length and grammar.
Ive also been given a number t call about getting volunteer work in a local community education centre which ill do tomorrow so hopefully ill sort that and have something to do to keep me occupied whilst looking for work... damn lack of work!
theres this advert on tv just now about a meerkat saying how he compares meerkats and how people trying to 'compare the market' keep stumbling accross his websit, he then continues to tell you to compare the market go to www.comparethemarket.com or www.comparethemeerkat.com for comparing meerkats ... thinking it would be a false website, but also wondering if they could advertise a webdite without owning it i decided to go onto it..... and lo and behold,
there is a compare the meerkat website where you can compare meerkats of different sizies, types, from locations.... hell - its pointless. but its amazing the effort tey've gone thru for teh sake of an advert and to amuse simple folks like me :D
Money Pending, For Moving Into My Own Place This Year I'd Like To Buy Myself A Flat Screen TV. Just To Make Myself Enjoy TV That Bit More. (OK, im gonna stop writing every word with a capital letter now, i started it by accident and thought i could keep it going but its really annoying me).
So yeah, i have noooooooo idea how much one costs BUT ive not really asked for anything this year cos im at an age where christmas isnt such a big deal so i figure as long as everyone likes what ive got them then thats cool and then i can buy myself a treat. It can be like my housewarming present to myself. See i wanted to get guitar hero, well rock band probably - but that means buying a playstation 3 and id never play it otehr than that game and maybe one or 2 more. and thats a shit load of money alone. Baby steps.
First things first, check your bank account......... and mention it to your rents or someone with a car so they can help you drive it to your new place!
He sat around the living room with his partner and friends, not to mention about 6 people he didn't know particularly well. It was large in size and better decorated than any student flat he'd ever seen in his life. He held his partners hand and tried not to look his old flame directly in the eye.
Yes, his girlfriend knew they used to date, and it was in the past but neither of them had expected to see the girl from his past on New Years Eve of all times. He knew his girlfriend would get jealous as they used to date for so long and they had so much history and that the new relationship was still new but that made it no less valid - this had been explained to her already, he had confirmed this to her. The girls on the other side of the room was his past, the girl next to him was his present.
The unfortunate part was that so many people he was friends with him and the girl he separated from all those months ago. it looks like he'd end up talking to her at some point tonight. If only to make sure the the party went as smoothly as possible. Someone always cried at a house party, and he wasn't going to be the reason that someone cried at this one.
Most people knew his girlfriend Beth already so once she was comfortable with the idea and at the party and it was obvious that they were indeed a couple he chose his time to go over and speak to the ex. A hard conversation to approach he knew but he waited for the right time, when there was only one or two other people talking to her at the time and as he started talking to the group it meant he could talk to her to to clear the air.
'So.. how's everyone's New Year's Eve?' he asked He got some acknowledgements, cheers' and high fives from the small group. The ex however, ignored him. 'How about you Michelle?' 'It's OK, I guess' 'How have you been?' he not so much inquired out of wanting to know but out of duty so people can witness he tried 'Not bad' she answered. Everyone sitting around looked awkward for both boy and girl and just started talking amongst themselves, blatantly still listening however in case they needed to intervene at any point. 'Have a good Christmas?' 'Yeah' 'Right, I'm gonna go for a bit. I'll maybe come back later and see if you fancy catching u with more than one word at a time. Good to see ya.' He said standing up and leaving.
If nothing else he was missing his girlfriend. That's why he knew that the new relationship was going to be different. He never felt this with Michelle, he couldn't even get a conversation out of her now, all these months later. He never missed her after days and he missed Beth after minutes, this wasn't the 'honeymoon period' either - this was different. This was love.
He stopped on the way to talk to some friends before making a trip to the bathroom, where he saw Beth, crying. He took her outside and asked what was wrong, he consoled her, he hugged her, she wouldn't let him kiss her though.
'Whats wrong?' he asked ' You can tell me anything, I love you' 'Why did you have to say that' she shouted 'Shouldn't I have?' he retorted, shocked. 'I cheated on you' she said through streams of tears 'When?' he said calmly, with eyes as cold as stone 'With my ex, on Christmas eve' she said again through more tears.
He called her a taxi and waited with her until it came, he couldn't look at her, couldn't say another word. He gave the driver thirty pounds and the address to get her home safe. He turned to Beth 'I'll see you around, but I don't want to. We're over, lose my number, don't call me, don't expect anything.' He opened the door and let her get in, she was still crying, harder than ever now he guessed. 'Happy New Year Beth' he said, before closing the door and tapping the roof of the taxi.
Tagged by Jemima but not having enough people t tag back now since i changed my background and lost everyone from my blogroll ill simply list 6 things that make me happy. They may not be in order, they may not be the top 6 but they will be 6 thing nonetheless. Enjoy..
1. A day out with my mates; be it hangin' out, cinema, the zoo, a pub, club or a house party!
2. Finding a new TV show I like and watching like a series of it over the space of a few days
3. Anything batman related
4. A cold glass of IrnBru
5. New Zealand, my holiday there and the hope to go back
Long time no ... write? At least in the blog anyways. I've been in New Zealand for two months though which could explain my absence and am now making a half assed attempt at doing some real writing. Real writing? I hear you ask, well this means its in a journal and I've wrote a few short chapters, the grammar is terrible and its got a lot of editing to go through but its a start.
Yeah, i guess a lot of people probably do what I'm attempting to do but then i figure, why cant i do it too? So here i am, back. I just need you all to send me your links again as I've updated my background (which i didn't know was possible) and only managed to find about 2 of my previous links which is a bit pants!
Steve asked me yesterday "if you could run one business for yourself what would it be?". I had no idea which is the answer he expected apparently but i thought about it and i realised something like ive done before, running an after school care/summer scheme for kids. i loved that! i kinda have an idea of a job if i could get the money/location! its vague/probably never gonna happen but how cool would it be to have my own business!!
and right now im doing counselling via texting and imhelping a lot of people and imreally enjoying it, i want to take a counselling course now to put it into better action or get a job where they'll put me thru it cos i know i wanna do community based stuff but i really like this... it feels really good.... im really glad i came here, i might have some ideas for when i come back to the UK... lets hope it sticks!
also, i have an idea for more ACTUAL writing, shame my grammar sucks huh?!?
Hey all, remember moi? well Ive done no writing since i got here which is a bit poor to be honest so I'm gonna just summarise whats been happening to keep you all up to date:
work wise; sorted out some stuff with epilepsy New Zealand to start up a youth project which ill continue to monitor from Scotland and I'm working for Youthline doing a mix of odd jobs, hands on youth work and some helpline stuff.
Fun wise; been making myself get used to the taste of beer cos cider is rare and expensive. had a couple of good nights out and seen a lot of cool sights, also got a camper van booked now to go from Christchurch back up this way as of the 14th. been to a rave even and bought myself flight of the Concords for the equivalent of about £8... exchange rate is pretty good over here btw...
kiwi people are generally really cool too which is a bonus but alas i do have to pay for the busses :(
i shall hopefully start to update more frequently soon.
For now....... You know that 'gap year' thing on bebo?? they send 6 people around the world, they do stuff, they blog, they take pictures, they video blog, they do cool things we wish we could do.....
i entered a competition to win a 3 day, 2 night trip on a boat race, all expenses paid (bar booze wouldnt ya know it) with one of the guys in aukland and i bloody won!! i go on the 24th for the weekend and i guess ill be uploadin stuff onto the gap year page etc!
so check out the gapyear page/the link to aukland thru that, its gettin upated tmrw with me as the winner.....
from the guy who had no holiday to the one who wins on when hes out here....
it cant get any better than this..... ive been in my primark pj shorts and a tshirt all day, watchin mostly paramount comedy. im almost finished packing and now im having a southpark-athon with a glass of milk and mars planets......
''Green and me, we look so swank in our tuxedos, wearing black and white bow ties, with fake carnations glued to our lapels. We have 'Just Married' written down both sides of the car with tubes and tubes of white toothpaste. Those Oreo cookies. twisted in half and stuck on. We have cowbells and tin cans roped to the rear bumper - a clear violation of the I-SEE-U Noise Limitations, but even Daytimers will cut slack for young marrieds. Cowbells bouncing and white streamers flying from our antennae, we pull up to the curb, and some guy's standing there with his hands stuffed in his pockets. Tina Something throws her bridesmaid's bouquet in his face, saying, 'Hey, dude.' She yells 'Catch!' The girls silk flowers hit him in the face but he catches them. He's quick. He's a quick guy, and we're short one lookout. How weird is that? I yell, 'You!' To the guy, I say, 'You got gas money?' It just so happens that guy is Rant Casey.''
extract from 'Rant' by Chuck Palahniuk, (chapter 16, page 122)
If you are an avid reader and havent read it yet quickly read Choke by Chuck Palahnuik....
Its amazing... the reason i suggest the reading soon is the release date for the movie based on the book sems to be October 31st. If however you doubt you'll read it for any reason but are now thinking to yourself 'Hey, Dave - can yu send me a link to so i can see what the movie looks like and read a synopsis about it?' then you are in luck my friend
sometimes i find i pack too much for a night, sometimes i pack really light for 2 weeks. im going for 2 months now and im finding clothes and shoes as i tidy up that i forgot existed. seriosusly, how many shoes, jackets, jeans, hoodies, long sleeved tshirts, pjs, boxers, socks...... well you get the idea.... how many of each of them do i take for 2 months?
then theres the fact im taking a helluva lot of medicine in 2 bags to be safe, then all my chargers, my laptop, external hard drive.... jesus. ive never found packing so hard or stressful and ive not actually started yet.
if anyone can actually offer sensible ideas her im willing to listen cos im a bit stuck.
i am planning ahead this time though unlike on most bus journeys of late, ive got my pads of paper so i can write stories, doodle and write mindless thoughts.... a bit like this one. so at least ill keep myself occupied for the most part i hope.
well, i guess i better sleep.... more mindless new zealand thoughts tmrw no doubt
.. one the other i could get arrested.... If I get bored on one of my planes to New Zealand should i randomly shout some reference to the film 'snakes on a plane' - clearly one of samual l jackson's greatest acting roles.
it could be something like 'holy crap, theres snakes on this plane!!', i could turn to the person next to me and say 'you know that film snakes on a plane? imagine if that happened here!!' or i could just stand up when everyones sleeping and shout 'am i the only one who's fed up of these motherf*****g snakes on this motherf*****g plane?!?'
start a checklist, make a checklist, finish tidying and organising my room, fill in documents, buy a new camera, pack my bag (once ive decided what im taking - what much of what kind of thing), pack a hand luggage bag. for the love of god pack more than enough medicine and separate it between both your bags Dave, Get the NintendoDs sorted with good games.
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