Status

its different amongst different people and different groups. i think ive noticed this a lot more recently though.

if you meet new people you technically have a chance to start off fresh, be someone new and act like someone thats the opposite of who you were or even are to other people to meet new and different people but i dont think ive ever done this. people have even told me that they're happy that university hasn't changed me and that im still myself, or when they hang out with my friends or im with them and their friends that im never anyone but myself.saying that, and bringing me back to the point of this blog, my status with different people, and groups is completely different in different places and situations.

at home im generally kinda guy who'll chat to anyone, have a laugh and do anything for his mates. i maybe even try too hard sometimes and get on my friends nerves because of this. the last sentance might also show i have a hint of paranoia in my system. im a genuine person who says what i feel unless it will make things harder for other people i care about and as much as i try to, i do end up arguing with my family quite a lot - probably because we're alike for different reasons and i sometimes do things they dont like me doing.

i think what makes me stand out is that ill talk a lot of crap and acknowledge it. ill laugh at my own expense because sarcasm is in my nature, i cant be expected to take the mick out of other people and not have it done in return. i adopted the name 'special dave' a while back which crops up again every so often because i talk a lot of crap, but i mean well.... but i will stand up for any of my mates who dont wanna cause trouble by doing it themselves if i feel something should be said. some people like that and wish they could, other people think im interfering. and im not afraid to apologise if i realise im in the wrong. why lose a friend over something that was my fault or could be easily resolved i figure.

at uni i gave it a shot, i mean i graduated but i think i was seen as someone who could fit in anywhere. which was true but by doing so i never made any long term friends unfortunately, everyone had fallen into permanent groups by the time i had realised it had happened. it didnt stop me hanging out, but it probably did make me distance myself a bit. at classes my status, or at least portrayed and therefore maybe the status i then projected to everyone else was that of a person who was willing to learn, but probably wasnt as experienced as some other people. this however did lead to me studying for assessments much further ahead than anyone else i knew and i only had 2 resits in my life at university which was better than expected.

university life however was different for me. i met a lot of people. some single serving, some long lasting and hopefully a few will be life long. I act to them no different than i do to my friends back home. the only difference may be that when i went to Glasgow i started drinking more, and if anything, my confidence has raised. i think i have helped some new friends gain more confidence in themselves also because of this and many of these newly acquired companions have been allies in many a house party or night at the union..... or both. I have a few different affectionate nicknames now which range from 'tit' to 'legend', contradictory but compassionate all the same.... or at least i like to think so.

hopefully all the above people will be waiting for me as friends to have more parties and have more nights out (or in) when i return form my spontaneous 2 month trip which i am going on early next month, cos if they're not ill have somethin to say about it!

which brings me onto my last and final point. i am away out of Scotland for 2 months shortly. another chance within my 22 year old life to change myself, change who i am, be someone else to impress the many or the few, to suit my surroundings and fit in. instead i will be myself and stick to my guns, i might stick out (im Scottish and ill be wearing a kilt every so often, of course ill stick out) but this could be a positive or negative thing. but either way im going to have a great time. ive had one so far, why change things for the 2 months im away?

in true rob style... thought of the day: the past has already happened and the future doesnt exist yet, all we can do is deal with the present

what i wrote when i couldnt sleep

bearing in mind i had been drinking with a few mates, arrived home and apparently talked to my mum which i dont even remember and went upstairs to sleep. this was written hours later in my phone after a bad on again off again sleep and saved in my phone.

The following is taken exactly from my phone at around 6am last night.... i dont even know what im about to write......


'No idea where i've put my contacts. they're definately not in my eyes anyway, thats for sure. i tried to take them out so many times my eyes are probably a different colour by now!
where they are, i have no idea. safe i'd gather - cos i don't remember chucking them banterously at an earlier point in the evening.

i just stumbled downstairs in a rather unfashionable fashion - by that i mean mostly sideways and falling into things. disastrious! upon trying to find my bottled water i failed miserably and only managed to drop chicken. i did grab an ice pole however and enjoy that!

suddenly i look thru two eyes, bad idea! double vision! but ireland soon dave, you will be alone in a sense as you won't really know anyone that well but you've always been good at putting yourself out there. you'll get by and you'll be fine. you know what. you'll be more than fine. you'll be awesome. this will be the best week of your life. and if it isn't..... you'll make it so'

The Guys Night In

*puts on some 'flight of the conchords' in the background to start this post*

So yeah, it was supposed to be a party. Not even supposed to be, but there was every intention of if being one, I invited enough people, there were a lot of delays in responses and i tried to work the date of the party around everyone else so i had high hopes of getting drunk with my friends but due to unforeseen circumstances it ended up being a guys night which to be honest ended up with hilarious consequences.... can i call them consequences in fact, i didn't do anything to make this happen, more like hilarious outcomes i guess... hell, it was a funny night.

So it started off with me Chris Frase and the new guy Bruce. so far what i knew of Bruce was that he was someone else in need of a drink. good enough for me, and he agreed to my 3 rules. 'What are your 3 rules Dave?' I hear you cry... well I'm glad you asked. 1. dont steal anything, 2. dont break anything and 3. dont puke if you can avoid it. - he agreed to all 3, as far as i was concerned, he was in for the drunken banter as much as anyone else.

Soon after euan called saying that his Sat Nav told him he was at my house.... silly sat nav, he was indeed at the right postcode, but still about a mile away. after about half an hour pof phone calls and driving we found Euan and safely got him to mine where the drinking finally began. music was put on, laughs were had (as was crisps and dip) youtube videos were watched (lips 2 da floor) and pendulum was put on while we played kings - note to all reading, never play the wikipedia rules for kings unless surrounded by hot girls!!!!! read them and you'll understand why! well, its a specific rule but still..... its one Ive never seen... and it never says when to stop this rule either which is what worries us, definitely not the rule for a lads nite!!

did you check?? i bet you did :p

so we all got pretty drunk and some absinthe was involved at some point when me and Frase remembered that we're goin to dress up as school kids for his bday in a few days, whats even funnier is that hes told others its a Mexican theme and others its a pirate theme..... this'll be one wicked party!! so we decided to get grass stains on our shirts by diving on the grass. im sure i thought i was cool and stuff at the time, but then the pain kicked in.... mostly when i winded myself.... or was it when we started tackling each other? well it couldn't have been as bad as when me and mark slapped each other for some unknown reason then Frase joined in..... Euan just stared blankly as we probably looked like the 3 stooges hitting each other. and it was all fun and games until a plant pot broke..... mums not to happy about that now, but i did re-plant it. what a clever little drunk boy i am :D

if only we'd stopped there, me and mark then thought that it'd be fun to start punching each other. we dont REALLY know why though. and we are both paying for it now. i think we must have presumed we were on jackass or something, but we didnt even record it to look back, we're actually just idiots... maybe next time we'll record it *sigh*

the highlight of my night has to be though discovering one thing about newcomer Bruce. no no, his last name is not Wayne, i was hoping for that too..... sadly i was wrong. it turns out that my ex from high school is his.... well his current i guess is the word. unfortunately me and my ex didnt leave things on the best of notes and i have this great ability to rip the piss outta her.... its just easy..... it probably makes me evil.... and it took all i had in me not to. this wasnt helped by the fact that Bruce was cool and that he kept saying how great high school ex was. as pointed out by a friend, people break up for reasons..... of all people, why tell me about her 'greatness'???

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......nd rest.....

and remember kids, The Fresh Prince and Jazzy Jeff handshake will never go out of fashion......

trust is a curious word

i have a lot of friends. i also have a lot of secrets. secrets ranging in depth of how 'secret' they actually are. i find keeping other people's secrets much easier than keeping my own ive found too. and what ive really found is that if you can find someone to trust with one of your secrets then your really lucky.

its amazing how many people can say 'you can tell me anything'. they will usually have a few reasons for saying this:

1. gossip - they cant wait to tell someone else
2. they cant wait to know something someone else doest know
3. they cant wait to have something on you to use as blackmail
4. they might actually be sincere

now the people who gossip, dont be mad at them, you've probably been one. but lets face it, it gets us nowhere. the people who just want to know something - thats just sad. but the people who listen they're the mates you need to keep by you and return the favour when the time comes. and it will. probably over a few beers but it'll come. people keep secrets all the time and telling someone who ca actually keep quiet it an awesome thing. ive been the guy who listens and ive got a few people who i can talk to, different depths of things to different people maybe but it still happens.


the world is full of secrets........ whats yours?

Friends

My friends mean the world to me. thats the cheesiest thing to say ever but its true. without them i'd have no one to accept my immaturity, to laugh at my stupid jokes, to wonder what my next stupid themed party would be (ok.... ill cut back on them now guys) and to just take me for me. All i would have is a bunch of strangers scoffing at me for being an outsider and not conforming to the ways they expect me to be and not being a typical student...

Over the last few months I've drifted away from you all and i hate that. this isnt a piece of writing to make anyone feel guilty, its a piece of writing to reminding you all that when we do see each other i hope we will still laugh at the same jokes, we will have new experiences to grow upon and remember and we can still take the joke emo photos im oh-so-prone to taking.

I dont expect us all to keep in touch every day, thats not realistic for the closest of friends never mind people who have just gone to uni (David), people now in 3rd year and with jobs (Jen) or people who are to busy just with course work other commitments (Steve) but i just want you all to know that I'm thinkin about you guys all the time and as long as my course work isnt insisting it takes my main priority i do have that free bus pass if a day trip is on offer :P

Ive looked over photos from patry's recently too and forgotten the last time i had so much fun at a house party. I miss the days of the Suzi, Fraze, Roz, Sara or Dave house Parties ... bar being chased with porcelain dolls of course ... that went a bit far, buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut ill forgive those concerned cos i love you all really.

Anyways, for those of you who dont have this address (most of you) im about to email it to you, you dont have to read anything else. just this. and remember that wherever we are, edinburgh, fife, glasgow, new zeland - we were all great friends once - people change and people gain new friends and have new experiences (both good and bad) but those who want to keep in touch can and will so i just thought i'd send this out o remind us all of that.

speak to you when i speak to you,


Dave .... or was that Special Dave?!? :P