the eternal struggle

Dearest [Annonymous Residence Location],


As much as I think you are all great as people, I now feel obliged to let you know a few things after a note left on our door this morning (29 April 2008).

The very fact that you can accuse our flat of making the smell that only started occurring when the hole in the roof appeared and water started leaking through it is unbelievable. What makes it worse is that you have either never been up since then or never noticed a smell since backing up the point that it is blatantly not us, but you have ignored the hole in our roof, either with your eyes or by not getting messages through to the janitors correctly or you have just not been up to do the monthly checks at all.

It may be taken into account that 2 janitors have to be on the day that our roof has to be fixed but considering we were told that by after Christmas we would have our problem solved and it was only fixed very recently I think that all the exclamation marks and accusations were a bit out of order. Claiming that all of flat 16 caused the smell in the flat is not only outrageous but also insulting!! (<--- How do you like it? hurts doesn’t it?)

Talking of delayed responses, electricity bills 6 at a time isn’t exactly ideal either. Now I live in the dark most of the time. Sometimes ill rub 2 pieces of flint together to get a spark but then ill remember how sensitive your fire alarms are and ill stop. Its completely unfair what you have done to us and we have no time to ration our electricity anymore as we have no time to budget. I have very little money at present and am not happy to think I will be taking out a loan now to cover my costs of electricity when it could have been easily avoided. I, along with everyone else have visited the mailroom many times and have given you many opportunities to pass on the bills and yet you held them back from us for so long that life is become more complicated than any of us ever needed it to be.

Taking all this into account I hope you will at least not charge us for the drawing pin hole in the kitchen door that you have made when putting the note that you so kindly left us, it warms my heart thinking about it now….. I will be asking for a breakdown of costs if I am charged a single penny when I leave as at least on my part the flat will be in a good condition when I depart.

Sincerely,



Dave

The End....

The young man wonders what to do next. He is no longer part of another half. It will take some getting used to but they both understood it was for the best, and a kept friend is better than a lost one - that he knew for sure. He hasn't got round to cleaning all the things out yet though, he needs to and he knows it. 'part of the healing process' he's been told. That's just it. he doesn't feel like he needs to be healed right now, he feels that the break up was for the best. Yes, there was pain, but in the long run its for the best. A little pain now to save a lot of pain later. It makes sense really.

Space. Is that it? Has hanging out as friends been happening too fast? He doesn't think so. he feels its been ok, but feeling aren't just like a switch, that's a fact. Maybe after today there should be a couple of days space? Not suggested, not to cause pain, just to distance each other slightly to get used to the idea.

The separation was mutual, maybe the reasons were mostly his at present but eventually they would be mutual and even if they were his, he should be allowed to be selfish slightly. 3rd year, jobs, work, late night and early mornings. a weight has been lifted for now knowing that he's not being the boyfriend who treats his girlfriend badly (unintentionally though it may be).

Most people understand, most people see it as mature, but his parents, they see him to be selfish. they see him to be disregarding of her feelings. They assume its just a phase. It's not. He's happy they were happy as a couple, but things change, situations change and people change. Now he's happy their just friends. One day his parent's will understand that. For now he will have to put up with their disappointment in the whole situation. He knows they only want him to be happy, but if they want him to be happy they would listen completely rather than with selective hearing.

This is not the end he realises, its the beginning. Its a new start. The old other half can be involved in his life to an extent as long as they are both happy to continue as friends, it will simply be in a different way than it was before. He on the other hand can continue with his life and spend more time to himself ensuring no one gets hurt along the way. Prioritising his work, Friends .... and maybe the odd drink

a collection of boring thoughts

Piece of advice; although working in a soup kitchen is rewarding, you meet interesting people, you come away with interesting stories and you learn a lot about yourself you'll suddenly realise that now all those people you walk past and avoid eye contact with so as not to feel guilty about not giving money to them........ they now know your name.


That wasnt exactly advice, but it was a point, and a true one, it was going to be advice but it went a bit weird as i started typing. ok, heres some advice - never trust a bus driver who scowls as you get on the bus, you'll only end up in east kilbride twice and be convinced that your in balamory and/or the land of the dead as you get on busses you've never been on in your life......... stupid tube being off!!!

• you know anyone looking to hire anyone as a youth worker/community learning worker at around 17-18 grand any time soon-ish?

• applying for jobs sucks.

• can you say 'damn straight!' referring to someone who isnt?

• why are sinks called sinks? i guess they would sink, but isnt the idea that things sink in them?

• 2 blonde's are sitting on a bus, one turns to the other; 'breezy up here, isnt it??'

• would you rather fade out and be forgotten or be hatefully remembered? i'd rather do some good and then fade out.......