has it come to this?

the answer?: YES

im so bored. im house/pet sitting just now and have had no human contact in almost a week. i also live in the country for those of you who didnt already know so the term 'cabin fever' is feeling quite literal. ive resorted to making up games or tasks to do to keep myself occupied over the minutes, hours and days. like ill see how slowly i can eat a sandwich, see what time i get hungry one day compared to the next, test how long till the dog wakes me, can i stay up for one more movie? will i get caught walking the dog in my dressing gown?
hell, ive even started reading a book!!

now to clear things up, i like my alone time, at my old flat i liked doing my own thing, catching up with my flatmate for a few hours then going back to work or watching a dvd or whatever. i like my own company too but i like the opportunity to be able to arrange things at a moments notice, to have things to look forward to on a certain day, to know friends weren't far away. right now however im stuck, no transport (no cheap transport anyways) and he most conversation ive had is on the phone to my best friend for a bit, my flatmate once and briefly on the phone to my neighbour looking for my mum. during these calls though i feel myself holding onto the conversation. desperate for socialisation. not because im lonely, just because of the comparison from silence to someone actually talking back.

the dogs shite for conversation too, and he doesnt do what hes told..... whats really worrying is that he barks when ANY car pulls up, its half eleven and im watching most haunted - yes i know, its crap and not scary but you try living in a secluded place thats haunted watching this show on your own!!

i can close the curtains at night and in the living room it makes it feel more 'homely' i guess. its really just cos i cant see out in case just in case a murderer was at the patio windows looking in. lets be honest though, im so bored right now id invite him in and make him something to eat. id probably counsel him a bit and find the root of his problem just for something to do.
when the police took him away at his own discretion as he gave a full confession id be sad as well. sure, id have saved a lot of people and got a confession out of him but now who would i talk to???

anyways, enough of that...... im going to leave you on a comedy quote that the woman from most haunted just said 'the producer and myself have been given the honour of going t it alone in studio 2' - idiot!