act your age, not your shoe size

by my title id have to be acting between almost 22 instead of between of ten and eleven...... thats probably where my mentality is right now. well, not right now. i dont know what just happened, but i feel my age. everyone worries about ageing, about turning the dreaded 19..... about leaving the teen years behind them, then apparently life only starts at 21. you hear all the ways out of people actually growing old gracefully. i mean jesus, look at hulk hogans wife! the phrase 'mutton dressed as lamb' comes to mind with that one.

i dont think i act like a different person, i think i am who i am, but theres this part at the back of my head thats just said to me 'come on dave, time to grow up a bit'. my friends who are younger than me have requested i dont change so that they have someone to be immature with, but i hope im not intentionally being immature. i hope im just being 'Dave'.

don't worry, i dont think im peter pan and that ill never grow up, but at 21 i think ive still got a few years of banter left in me havent i? ive had and lost a lot of friends over the years and i never really understood why as i didnt think i was changing, but the friends i have now are great - i wish i saw them more to be honest and as far as i can tell they like me for me .... dont you? so why when i see people younger than me do they seem so much smarter, more classy, and when they look at me - just being me i get the feeling that they cant wait to see the back of me?

sure, i dance like a ...... well i cant dance, i probably speak a bit much sometimes and im possibly the most paranoid person in the world (thus this entire blog) but there must be smething people like about that, or at least they look past all that crazy shit to see some good qualities ive got hidden way back there.

maybe i need reassurance...... then again, maybe i just need a drink, i have been working quite hard.