yes, thats right i got a letter today. no, im not excited cos i thought i was populor, i think my heart skipped like 20 beats tho cos i thought it was the date of my operation for my arm to stop it dislocationg. weird timing since only this morning i was thinking its been a while since it came out..... i wonder if ill miss it coming out, the routing of 'no no, that needle, ill get the veine, there youe go, can i get another 2 whatever you call its of morphene please?' and wondering if ive drawn the nice or not so nice ambulance crews.
last time i got teresan. thats teresa and ian. they were cool, really nice. didnt force me to put an arm in a sling or anythin which was nice. teresa did call me gay a lot cos i was wearing long pj bottoms and said if she comes out again shes allowed to do it without me complaining which i stupidly agreed to (bloody gas and air will make u do anything and be anybodys i bet!).
anyways, so this letter - bold letters - 22 november 2007, panic strikes me. then i realise it was only a pre op assessment. its ok then. ill probably get the real operation just in time for my birthday. happy 22nd Dave, now you cant move for 6 months!! no going out, .... wait, i was about to make a list. but ive just realised how much my social life is gonna fall here, i barely have one as it is. fuck, im actually gonna be house bound with an arm in a sling, jesus. im gonna have to be like one of those creepy neighbours kids are scared to get their football from when it goe sinto their garden! 'run, its old man dave!' they'll shout as i come running out with my rake (in my left arm).
ok, a bit dramatic but lets think about this, long term yay - even tho the doc has done '2 or 3' operations like this as its apparently more comonly done in europe, not scotland. stupid lack of bone in my shoulder!! so yeah, 2 or 3 means more 1 or 2 whoch means 1 whch probablhy means he's read the theory. hell, ive read the theory!! .. buuuuuuuuut, he is apparently a joint genius, the body panrt joint that is, not any other dodgy kind. people always talk about him being good. its just a lot to go thru at my age.... *suddenly remembers last blog*
im actually shitting it. im talking light heartedly really but im terrified. what if it fucks up? what if they cant fix me? what if i cant finish uni? what if i cant open my christmas presents with one arm????
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10 years ago
1 comments:
It's understandable that you would be anxious - it's a huge experience you have to go through.. but it's for good reason.
I hope you are alright - I know I won't be able to say I understand but I'm here if you need to talk you know.
I was gonna set up a blog like this myself..been meaning to do it for a long time. But I think I have secrets I'll just keep hidden - nobody wants to know mine....!
:) Lou xxxx
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