my first and last resort

living on a farm gets kinda tedious. There isnt much to do right now apart from the obvious - tidy up, and to be fair, i dont wanna do that, i look for distractions and wheres best for that? the Internet. my blog, sites where i can post comments to my friends, i can download things via itunes, send emails or if nothing else works i can just watch a dvd. the Internet is actually a curse.

I mean its brilliant, i dont know how i'd survive without it, but with it i am a zombie. Looking to my right there's so much to be done but thinking in my head theres so many distractions from actually continuing with work that NEEDS to be done before i can move out.

For those of you addicted to social networking sites such as myself i strongly suggest listening to 'new friend request' by Gym Class Heroes. It defines everything i've just said and more. Its genius, seriously. give it a listen, its probably on their home page - it basically describes how desperate people are to escape reality that they use the Internet to do so...... although they go into more depths.

And we all do it from time to time, I know i do. even if its a cyber reality of talking to my friends, ok that sounds kinda weird now. but its a distraction. it just means when my parents ask me to do something i can excuse myself from it as 'im busy' or when i see a mess i can 'get to it later'.
Later never arrives and if i want to move out, later has to be soon. I have 8 bags sitting around me right now and i actually dont know whats in any of them....... jesus.

Internet. I both love and hate you. You have helped me get where I am, this is a great thing and a terrible thing all at once. damn you......