the unexpected wake up call

He stayed up late at night, he had things to do - at least thats what he told people whilst he watched the latest season of his favourite tv show. This of couse resulted in sleeping in during the day, he knew his parents wouldn't be best pleased about this now that he was home but it was a sacrifice he was willing to take.

He fell asleep around 4am and the next thing he realises he's waking up to the 'vrooom vrooom vrooom' vibration of a text message coming through at half past 10 in the morning. Picking up the phone in a hazy state and expecting it to be one of about 7 people he is shocked to see the ex girlfriends name there when he opened the '1 message received'. he looks through his recently rubbed eyes to read 'im sorry for hurting you'.

Confusion strikes, yes he was hurt by the break up once upon a time. The break up had initially had been mutual, then as the story goes, each of them had hurt differently but the young man had wanted to rekindle the relationship whereas the girl wanted alone time. This turned out to be time where she would stay with the boy sh was seeing however and develop that to a relationship however. As the confusion continued to set in all the young man could think to do was leave the message until he was more awake or do what he really wanted to do - ask where this sudden apology had came from..... so he asked where the apology came from.

Eventually he got a reply stating that she was just thinking how upset he was and that she just wanted to say sorry...... and yes, he was upset for a while and she apologised at the time. Why apologise again now? guilt? closure? thinking about him? just wanting him to say its all ok so they can be out of each others lives? who knows apart from the girl.

It was time for the truth, so thats what he replied with. it basically said that he was upset but that he wasnt anymore, he knew things weren't going to change any time soon and he had accepted that, he used to want things to be different but he was fine now, he didn't like the fact she went straight into another relationship as it seemed like their time together meant nothing but it was obviously was best for her. He would probably never be fine with the girl and her new other half together at the same time but if the ex and himself remained friends then at least that would be something.

there was no reply after that. maybe there would be, maybe there wouldn't. maybe she was stuck for words. There are a lot of if's, but's and maybe's in this story. In the long run though, if the girl is apologising then the man thinks there is a reason so he feels that giving his honest opinion was the best thing to do in return. why now? he doesnt know, the outcome? he doesn't know.

what the future holds? whatever i want it to. this is MY life, I had a choice on what to do and I think I made the right one.